I don’t fear change. I actually feed off it. I am constantly making things to look forward to. The next trip. The next project. The next play date. It always varies in size and sometimes I do a whole lot of change at once.
Last summer, I started getting that feeling like I needed a change. Kevin got a new job, moving up in the company and I started to wonder “What’s next?” We are done with babies, IUDs aren’t shooting out of my uterus and things were going pretty swell. So we moved and that understandably distracted me from about Sept-Feb. But it came back.
At work, I wondered what was my “5 year plan”. Where did I see myself going? I realized development was rewarding but also sometimes extremely overwhelming. It is a hard feeling to describe. On one hand I could get that high from figuring something out. I love that feeling but at the same time, just using a really neat web app would paralyze me. A new Netflix interface. A children’s app. I could see what it took to make it and I would get this rush of “fuck, I could never do that”. I am not an “I can’t” person.And for all intensive purposes, I COULD do those things but I started to realize I didn’t want that. I didn’t want to be a senior developer in 5 years. There were people far better than me out there at THAT. I have a shit ton of awesome skills…so I wasn’t completely lost but I knew I needed to figure this out. I asked to work more with our social media and marketing of the product. I enjoyed that…a lot. I liked coming up with catchy images and tweets to get people interested in our stuff. I liked showcasing tips and tricks. I liked having a voice with a side of nerd speak. Then I was approached about doing it on a bigger scale.
So I’m making a jump. A BIG jump. Starting August 1, I leave my “first” job as a nerd to go to marketing. I will be on the SAS Social Media team to promote all of SAS. Go big or go home I guess. Not only is it a jump in complete job role but this is also a pioneering group for SAS. I am ecstatic. I am trading in my IDE for Word Press and Facebook Ads. But at the same time, I know my technical knowledge is going to be extremely important. Understanding technical specs of tools. Tearing apart dashboards and researching/creating plugins. I’ve already dropped some “oh that’s easy…we can do that real quick”s that have people going “wait what?” I will be dressing fancier (watch out #officefashionshow) and talking to important people more than compiling class files and editing SQL queries.
But leaving my work family is really hard. For the last 10 years, I have worked for one product. I’ve held 3 different positions and worn so many hats, I could attend Kentucky derbies for the rest of my life. I have to say I am one lucky lady. I came here to join this group and this group alone. I didn’t just want to work for SAS…I wanted to work for SAS inSchool. And I got it. I got to leave college with my dream job and keep doing it. That’s rare and amazing and I will never forget that. They have been my family. They mentored me. They showed me an even bigger love for education. They made me get out of my comfort zone. They let me curse like a sailor. They challenged me. They showed me hilarious viral videos and responded to me with GIFs <3. They let me vent. They taught me to be me and not apologize for it. They pushed me to write. They saw me get married. They saw me get the size of a whale(2 times!) and bring home babies. They dealt with my horrible spelling and bad vocabulary. They encouraged me to do what I wanted to do…and trusted me to make this product better. And I spent 10 years trying to make it the best I could.
But it’s time for change. The good thing is I am just a few buildings away. There is still IM. There is still the gym. There are still lunch dates. I hope I can make them proud on a bigger stage and learn a totally new skill set.
Oh and teach a whole new set of people how to talk nerdy :).