This Train

Had one of those reflection moments on the drive in this morning. Oliver is getting his first little baby cold and is all out of whack. It isn’t a bad cold and he isn’t terribly congested but you can tell he is just confused. This drainage in his throat makes him cough and wakes him up. It has been a few rough nights so far but it is what it is. He has to go through it at some point. So while I clutch my coffee and game plan my lunch time nap, I found myself saying “we just have to get through it and it gets easier next time”. With Landon we had to go through it and now when he is sick, it is TOTALLY manageable. No up-all-night fests. He can blow his own nose. He can get back to sleep after a coughing fit.

WIth all that said, I was listening to John Mayer this morning (he might be crazy but I have always liked him) and Stop This Train came on and I got a little teary eyed. Somedays the train is brutal and you just want to tuck and roll but you can’t. Then somedays you want to stay on it and soak up the awesome like a transient with a pocketful of dreams.  So thanks, John Mayer for helping me this morning…even if you are bat shit crazy.

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t but honestly won’t someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I’m only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you’ll renegotiate
Don’t stop this train
Don’t for a minute change the place you’re in
Don’t think I couldn’t ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we’ll never stop this train

See once in a while when it’s good
It’ll feel like it should
And they’re all still around
And you’re still safe and sound
And you don’t miss a thing
’til you cry when you’re driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take this speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
Cause now I see I’ll never stop this train

5 Comments

  1. he is bat shit crazy, but I love his music in a teenage girl kind of way.
    Thinking about you. Thankful that my kid mostly sleeps through the night.
    Bat shit scared about the new one who won’t.

    XOXO

  2. That’s good stuff! I slept like shit last night (preggo and uncomfortable) and my son woke up an hour earlier than normal this morning. When I finally made it into the shower I just put my head back and thought A) I’m soooo taking a nap in my car during lunch B) is it weird to take a nap in your car during lunch? C) how am I going to get through having a newborn and a toddler if I’m this tired now???

    You are right, it is what it is and you get through it! I’ve never heard this song before, thanks for sharing!

    • I give you so much credit for being pregnant right now! You’ll get through it all–I think you just adjust when the time comes. It has to be instinctual. I hope you get better sleep tonight! We were on vacation all last week, and my son slept so well in the pack n play. As soon as we came back home, he started waking up every 2-3 hours again (he’s 19 mos old…) so I have no idea exactly what that indicates.

  3. I’m so with you. My son had 1st cold a month after starting day care (so he was 4 mos old). Turned into bronchialitis. It was so hard and so scary, but now when he gets his sniffles, I don’t freak out (as much). He’s only 19 mos, so still wakes up from draining etc., but I’m at least calmer about the whole thing. Just the same old helpless feeling. It will be amazing when he can blow his own nose!!

  4. Love John Mayer (at least his old stuff). That song always makes me teary too. Thanks for the reminder of it…I’m going to listen to it now!

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